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| ANOTHER new blog |
| 05.26.04 (5:48 pm) [edit] |
Henry designed my new blog, but it's not going to stay that way for long.
http://murder.tblog.com..." title="http://murder.tblog.com..." target="_blank"http://murder.tblog.com...
enjoy it while it's still covered in women!
Main reason I don't want this name anymore...
I shouldn't feel worthless, and I don't anymore. I have the world's best girlfriend who makes me feel like a million dollars....and I love her for it. I love her no matter what. [b]I love you Jessie[/b]...and blame Henry for my new blog!
~Missy~
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| Scandalous! |
| 05.25.04 (12:04 pm) [edit] |
I miss Jessie...We haven't been able to talk much lately, and it sucks. I have to wait a whole nother 2 hours just to talk to her again, and I hate it. I've gotten more fucking sympathy cards, and I'm about ready to fucking kill someone for sending them to me...
What does it take to get through your thick fucking skulls that I'm not dying???? Maybe in 30-40 years, but not today, not tomorrow...not next week alright? Now fuck off and leave me the fuck alone. I'm tired of you all feeling so sorry for me, I don't wanna fucking hear it. I'm already in a horrible mood, and have been for awhile...and I blame everyone who fucking sends me these cards for contributing to this...if you were my 'real' friends maybe you'd stop fucking bothering me...maybe you'd stop feeling so fucking sorry...if I were dying, I think I'd fucking know about it alright? It's pretty sad when Jessie's the only person who makes me fucking happy...and even that is pretty hard to do these days because of these assholes constantly on my case about everything. GET LIVES!
[b]I love [u]you[/u] Jessie.[/b]
[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| If I Could Sing A Song, I'd Sing It To You... |
| 05.21.04 (10:31 pm) [edit] |
I miss Jessie like crazy, we didn't get to talk much, and I understand because she's got stuff to do too. My dad had a heartattack which added to my shitty and busy night, he might need surgery which sucks, but it's good he's pulling through. It was the first time in weeks my aunt didn't say shit to me, it was peaceful.
I think Jessie's doing better, and it's good to hear. She's the strongest woman I've ever met, and I love her so much. I'm all excited about seeing her, and living near her, and spending my life with her, she knows that. Lord knows I'd give up anything in this world to make her happy, and to be by her side if she ever needed me. I wish I could do more for her right now, but all I can do is promise her my full attention, and all of my availibility for her. I'll always be here. I think everyone's been leaving her alone too, it's been beautiful, and seeing my baby happy...makes me happy.
I have to be up in a few hours, I don't quite understand why I'm still up. I thought I was tired, but I guess I wasn't. All I can think about is Jessie and my dad. Jessie helps me pull through so much, and the thought of her, makes me smile. She knows she's always on my mind, and I'd be lost without her. Sometimes I don't know how I ever lived without her. God she's amazing. I can't wait to talk to her tomorrow, it can't come any quicker.
[b]I love you Jessie, always and forever.[/b]
[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| I hurt myself again, not knowing why... |
| 05.19.04 (7:13 pm) [edit] |
[b]I've had enough...this selfish cries... I hurt myself again, not knowing why....
It seems so easy, to leave it all behind...to avoid the truth I think I'd rather just go blind...[/b]
I'm afraid for Jessie, and I'm afraid she's going to be taken away from me. I'm afraid they'll send her away...and I'll never be able to tell her I love her. She means everything to me, and I want to heal her pain. I want to take it all away from her. I want to kiss her tears away, and kill everything that hurts her. I wish I could help her, and I feel like the more I try, the more I ruin her. I'll never leave her side, and no matter what, I'll never give up. She can fight talking to me all she wants, but I'm not going away, and I'll always listen. No one is going to take my Jessie away from me. I love her...and she's everything I need. I'm going to be everything she needs...I'll prove that to her. I'll be her best friend, her lover, and her only. When I'm there, I'll hold her until night fall, and crawl into bed with her, and wrap my arms around her...I'll wipe every sheaded tear away. She's the strongest person I've ever met...and I admire her. She makes it through everything, and breaking down happens to the best of us. I don't know how to take away her pain, and I hope I can. I really hope to hear from her soon, I'm worried. I hope she's ok and that she's not crying. When she cries, I want to cry, and when she's hurt, I hurt too. I love her, and no matter what, I'm not going anywhere. I'll fight til the death, and even then, I'll never stop fighting for what we have. It's pure...and true. I wish everyone would stop bothering her...she needs peace too. I promised I would make this all better for her...and it seems like I've failed. All I feel is this heartache...and the heartache I feel is the feeling of failure. I wanted to be her hero...and save her. I hope I can...and I have all the faith in the world in Jessie. I miss her like crazy, and it feels like the world is against us. I wish you'd all let us breathe and be happy...and I hate you all.
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[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| Gone... |
| 05.17.04 (10:25 pm) [edit] |
I think I'm finally going to leave tblog after my length of membership. For those of which I like, I'll give you the link, I refuse to display it in here, it just doesn't seem right. I'm sorry to see that my friend Andrew won't like me anymore due to the fact that I'm leaving, but I'm not changing my mind, in fact, I've wanted to leave for awhile.
Take care everyone.
~Missy~
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| 05.12.04 (12:19 pm) [edit] |
I have nothing to say that would actually make much of sense right now...all I can say is that my day was shitty, but then it was good, and now it's back to shitty.
It's not even something I want to talk about, but something I want off of my chest. Maybe because I don't was to disclose it with the world, and maybe I just don't want any of you knowing about it. My trust is limited, and just about everyone is violating my personal space, and my limits. No one lets me breathe at times, and the whole sympathy act just adds to the pressure I get from everyone. I don't like anyone feeling bad for me for my condition, I don't like when people who I don't even know, but know one of my friends, come up to me and tell me how deeply sorry and how tragic it is for me to live my life this way. Live my life WHAT way exactly? Maybe because I don't want to spend my time on this fucking planet in a constant panic as to when I'll die, or constantly limit myself to nothing just so I can live a little longer, fuck that. If people would open their eyes and realize, I too, am a person, and I'm still living...just like you...you'd know that I'm exactly like you. I haven't kicked yet, have I? No. I don't want any fucking e-cards, or actual sympathy cards, because I've received a few. I even received a few from people who I don't even consider friends anymore. Don't pester me with that shit...I've gotten over it, maybe you should too.
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~Missy~[/i]
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| Finally Did It... |
| 05.09.04 (3:03 pm) [edit] |
[b]This is a survey, with the many questions! It all applies to you! Fill it out, and have your friends fill it out too! [/b]
Basics
Name- MeLiSsa
Nicknames- Missy, Miss, Mel, Melly Belly...M-Dogg...Freak...Blondie...
Worst Nickname- Melly Belly
Best Nickname- Missy! or anything Jessie calls me
Pet name- can't name them all
Family Nickname- I'm just called Melissa...or Melissa Sue
Were you ever called a pimp- yup
Were you ever called a whore- who hasn't?
Are you really any of the above- only with Jessie
Age- 19...but I feel like I'm 80 years older
Birthdate- 3/29...
Birthplace- Rome...if you can't figure out where that is, then you're an idiot
Current Location- I wish I were in Alaska...
What states have you lived in- Alaska when I was way younger, Florida
Height- 5'8"
Weight- goddamn I'm fat...
How tall were you when you were 13- 5'2"
How much did you weigh when you were 13- I was a fatty back then too
Do you wish you were skinnier/fatter- I need to lose about 100 more lbs
Are you ever told you're ugly- I know I'm hot, sue me
Do you wear glasses/contacts- glasses, not very often though
Do you have braces-retainers- nopers
Do you have any bald spots- well I'm bald in a few places
When's the last time you had a hair cut- uhh...2-3 months ago
What color is your hair naturally- brown
If you dye it, what color is it now- blonde
Do you wear colored contact lenses, if so, what color- zip
If you don't, what color are your eyes- brown...lord I'm plain...but Jessie doesn't like my eyes
Family
Do you have a large family- yup...
Do you have any brothers/sisters- too many...
Are you the oldest or youngest- middle
Do you like your position in the family- doesn't bother me
Do you hate your family- yup
Do they hate you- they sure do...
Ok putting the hate aside, whose your favorite relative- my aunt
Where do they live- Florida
Do you have special family gatherings- of course we do and I hate them
Whens the last time you spent time with your entire family- yesterday...ugh
Do you ever have family reunions- yup...
Have you ever hit a family member- many times
Are your parents married or divorced- married...
How many parents do you have- 2...but it feels like none
Is your family incestuous (is your dad your uncle, brother etc)- I'd hang myself
Do they expect you to be perfect- of course...but I'm not
Do they ever stop you from doing shit- plenty of times
Do you think they understand you- have they ever?
Do they lecture you on clothes- not really, they think I dress appropriately
Do they ever call you a slut/asshole- plenty of times
Do you find any cousins hott- ew...
Do you have any grandchildren- no
Do you have any children- nope...
Do you have many nieces and nephews- way too many
Friends
Who is your best friend (there is only ONE best friend)- Jessie
Do you feel as if you're popular- nope...I'm a loser
Out of your friends who is the...
Artist- Henry
Abstract- Henry
Assholic- Gary
Appauling- Andrew...at times
Bitchy- Ashley
Bossy- Ashley
Bastardish- Kyle, though he's not my friend
Baddest- me...yup that's right...ME
Boring- Eric
Bisexual- I have many bi friends, but I suppose some are more bi than others...
Blondest- I win! I'm the dumbest
Coolest- Jessie, she's the coolest cat of all
Cockiest- Ashley...
Challenged- Ben...I swear he's an idiot
Cutest- Jessie...always will be!
Dumbest- me...I lack any bit of intelligence
Dorkiest- Kenny
Dweebiest- Jason
Divine- Jessie....ah I love that girl
Demented- Eddie
Depressed- Henry
Elfiest- ..
European- Christine
Fattest- Denice...but she's cool
Fruitest- Steve
Foreign- Nico
Faggiest- too many to list
Fastest (Easiest)- Ashley
Fantastic- Jessie...100%
Gayest- Andrew wins
Hottest- Jessie...oh god she's fucking hot
Homie- Amanda
Homebody- Lawrence
Horniest- me...
Ickiest- me..I'm nasty
Illest- oh Sammy, he's da big bad gangsta
Jumpiest- ...
Lonliest- Lawrence...
Looniest- Eddie, he frightens me
Monkey- Nico
Moron- Sammy
Mormon- I'm a little unsure if I know a mormon...and if I do...I forgot
Manliest- can't think of anyone
Nigger (MEANS IGNORANT, NOT A BLACK PERSON)- lol
Nigerian- Mindel
Normal- I don't know any...normal people
Penis (biggest penis)- ugh...Kyle...but he isn't my friend anymore
Prettiest- Jessie..my love
Poorest- me!
Richest- ...
Rowdy- I feel insulted...
Rude- Katie is probably the rudest person I've ever met, but she's nice to me, so that's ok
Stupidest- Kyle
Saddest- Henry, he worries me
Shyest- Denice
Singer- Jessie...she sings...A LOT...but she never really sings :(
Shortest- Amanda
Skinniest- Shay
Smartest- Shay
Slut- I'm Jessie's bondage slut, does that count?
Tallest- Matt...
Tomboy- Denice
Tomgirl- ...
Tormented- Denice
Vulnerable- Denice
Whore- Jessie's my bondage whore
Who do you trust most- Jessie
Who is 2faced- Ashley
Who do you tell everything to- Jessie
Have you dated a friend- yup
Past
Have you ever had sex- we won't go into that topic
Have you ever cheated- yes...
Have you ever kissed somebody else when you were with someone but never thought it was cheating- lol yeah...but that was a long ass time ago
Have you ever masturbated- ooh everyday
Have you ever masturbated with someone else- maybe...
Have you ever watched someone masturbate- possibly
Have you watched a pornographic film- yup
Do you look at pornographic pictures- not anymore, I behave now
Do you own a pornographic magazine- threw them all out...I behave now
Do you own a sex toy- lol...yup
Do you own condoms/protection- not anymore...I don't need protection with Jessie ;)
Are you on the pill- nope
Have you ever been cheated on- yeah...
If you have, how did you figure it out- I found them, and I didn't really care so much considering it was our last day of the 2 weeks
Do you ever think you're being cheated on- nope...I trust Jessie with all my heart
Do you ever feel jealous of your spouse or crush- yes..but who doesn't ever feel jealous?
Have you ever given head- yup...
Have you ever eaten someone out- not really
Have you ever fingered someone- maybe
Are you completely innocent- 110% baby...I do no wrong, and I'm never horny
Were you experimental as a child- of course...but I was always fucking caught
Have you ever hit on a relative's friend- lol yeah...I used to hit on my brother's friends all time
Ever have a crush on a teacher- not really no...I never found many older men that hot
Ever do anything nasty on the playground- maybe...you'll never know
Have you ever skinny dipped- yup
Have you ever wanted to- with Jessie
Have you ever posed naked- possibly
Have you ever danced naked- yup
Have you ever wanted to- ooh me and Jessie are going to do a lot of that in the future...I mean
Have you ever maxed out a credit card- yup
Have you ever stolen money from your parents- have they ever stolen money from me? YES!
Have you ever hit someone- yup
Shot them- I've wanted to about a million times a day
Killed them- not yet!
Ever want to- yes...every...single day
Ever wanted to kill someone who liked your spouse or crush- YES! that Ryan guy will fucking day if he ever crosses my path
Have you ever played a sport- yup...
Have you ever been on a cheerleading squad- yup...SHUT UP
Have you ever hated cheerleaders- yup
Love
Are you currently in a relationship- yup! I love my Jessie
If you are, how long- 2 years and a month (in 17 days)
What is their name- Jessie...I love that girl!
If you aren't, do you have a crush- nope
What is their name- nope
About your spouse/crush
Do they have long or short hair- eh...shoulder length I believe
What is their natural color hair- she doesn't even remember, how can I?
Do they dye their hair, if so, what color- black...with red
Do they have any piercings- yup
Do you like them with piercings- she's sexy
Do they wear make up- yup
Does it look good on them- yup...she's fucking hot
Do they have big feet- uhh...I dunno
Are they pretty/hott- SHE'S GORGEOUSSSS
Are they popular- I don't care what she is, but all that matters is that SHE'S MINE! MINE MINE MINE!
Are they smart or dumb- she's very smart...I love that girl
Are you in love with your spouse/crush- oh god it's more than love to me baby...she's my life
Do you believe they are 'the one'- god yes...I've known that all my life
Are you engaged- yup
Are you just taken- yup
Are you single- no, and I'm never going to be
Do your parents approve of this person- I don't give a fuck anyway, I love her
Have you kissed- soon...but in my mind...we've done a lot more than that
Have you had sex- no, not until she's ready
Have you done anything- leave me alone
Do you have phone sex- ...maybe
Do you have cyber sex- ;)
This or That
Milk or Chocolate Milk- both
Hot or Cold- hot...
Spring or Fall- both are ok to me
Summer or Winter- summer...and god I can't wait until August
Coke or Pepsi- coke
Car or Truck- I like my car
SUV or Van- SUV
Sing or Dance- I suck at singing, but I love dancing
Run or Walk- walk
Light or Dark- dark
Day or Night- night
Shower or Bath- shower with Jessie...or a bubble bath with Jessie!
Soap or Body Wash- both...I'm allergic to some body wash...damn sensitive skin
Sex or Make Love- make love
House or Apartment- house with Jessie =D
Dog or Cat- cat! my egyptian mau
Bird or Fish- my birdy =D
Monkey or Negro- I'll steal Jessie's hula monkey
Black or White- I'm blacker than you
Japan or China- I don't like squinty eyes
Iraq or Iran- They both need to be bombed until they no longer exist. -WELL SAID
Afghanistan or Pakistan- Same with them too. --Agreed
Canada or South America- Canada!!
New York or Washington- New York...
Alaska or Iceland- Alaska...with my baby
Italy or France- well I love Italy...but France with my baby
Germany or England- I dunno
Do you own a car- yup
What kind- my mitsubishi montero sport and my mach 1 mustang
Do you want a car- nah I'm happy
What kind-
Do you have a computer- nope
What kind- ...
If you didn't get that last question- I did
Are you an idiot- I think I am
Are you still in school or did you graduate- graduated
If you are still in school, what grade- ...
When did you graduate- 2002
If you are in college, what year- I'll never tell, it's too confusing
If you aren't in college, what do you do-
What do you want to do- pediatrician
Do you have a life- my life is all about Jessie
Are you lesbian/gay/bi/straight- lesbian
Beliefs
God- no
Heaven-no
Hell- no
Love at first sight- no
Soul mates- possibly
Love in order to have sex- possibly
Abortions- I'm mostly against them...but there are a few reasons to have it done
Death penalty- YES
Gay marriage- YES
Womens rights- no kidding
Ghosts- no
Aliens- sure
Vampires- have you met Jessie?
Demons- no
True love- yes...I love Jessie
Wasn't this long- too long
[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| ...Getting old |
| 05.07.04 (8:41 am) [edit] |
My back is killing me...and I went to see my doctor early this morning, and apparently, there is something really wrong with my back. He doesn't want me to do any type of lifting, he doesn't want me working, he doesn't want me doing anything. He says they're going to run x-rays and such, he says it shouldn't be too severe, but if it is...I'll need surgery... :?
I miss Jessie so much, and I'm so tired. I'm thinking about taking a nap..but I still feel bad about last night, and I'm not going to go into detail about it. I don't feel as if everyone should know about it...but lets just say...I have the most amazing girlfriend in the whole entire world, and I'm lucky to have someone so understanding and so reliable. I love her so much, and I'd die without her. I don't care what anyone else says about her, she's everything to me, and she's my world. So fuck off if you have a problem with my baby. I still have to do laundry...so I should probably get going.
~Missy~
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| 05.05.04 (6:31 pm) [edit] |
Everything about your spouse! (None of this applies to you, only about your significant other). Don't cheat by asking them the answers.
Full Name : Jessica Marie ------!
Nicknames : Jessie...Jess...hunny...baby...ROSEY!
Height : 5'5"
Weight : she'll never tell me
Eye Color : beautiful blue eyes
Hair Color : black with red, she's a freak, but I love that girl
Contacts-Glasses-Nothing : contacts
Birthday : March 1st
Age : 19
Birthplace : Alaska
Location : Alaska
Dimples : she doesn't look like she has dimples
Freckles : doesn't look like it
What is the best about them on their face (Eyes, Lips...) : I love everything about that girl, especially her eyes...and her cute smile
Shoe size : uhh I'll guess 8 or 9
What are their parents names : Julie and John
Siblings : 2 brothers and sister
How many aunts or uncles : uhh...I know she has some, does that count?
Favorite Relative : probably her...mommy or her...grandma?
Are they oldest or youngest : oldest
Favorites
Sport : I don't think she has a favorite sport
Car : Jessie's not all into cars so uhh...I couldn't even tell you
Drink : diet coke...water...orange juice
Cologne/Perfume : she doesn't even remember the name...all I know is it's expensive
Color : black...red...I dunno that girl's a freak...and she loves the dark...and blood
Season : probably summer...the woman bitches about winter
Day : ...any day she's away from me she loves!
Holiday : I dunno
Band : ...I have no fucking clue
Rapper : probably Eminem...
Group : no..clue
Music : that girl loves anything
Store : Hot Topic
Clothing : she doesn't like name brand clothing..blah blah blah
Food : I just know...that girl eats mini burritos a lot
Kind of food (mexican, italian) : no clue
Friends
Their best friend : me!
Funniest friend : Jessie
Nicest friend : Jessie
Bitchiest friend : lalala
Ugliest friend : lalala
Hottest friend : Jessie's the hottest in my book
Prettiest friend : Jessie again
Smartest friend : Jessie
Dumbest friend : even though Kyle's not her friend...Kyle!
Their most embarrassing moment : she's told me a few, but because I love her, and people can talk to her...I won't put her out like that
Thing they are most proud of : meeting me...damn straight...or putting up with me for so long, now that's a chore
Do they have a job : looking for one
What do they do for a living : she's my bondage whore
What do they want to do for a living : paramedic...firefighter...my baby will save lives
Are they rich, poor, or mediocre : she has money!
What is funniest about them : everything...she's so cute
What is dumbest about them : nothing at all
What do they do that makes you laugh most : oh god she's such a freak, and I love it
What do they do that makes you smile most : everything...her laugh makes me smile, talking to her makes me smile...god she's the greatest
What do they do that makes you mad : I dunno...we don't get seriously mad at eachother often
Were they the class clown, nerd, prom queen, what : she was the rebel!
What would you say would be their best trait : everything about that girl is the best...especially her big breasts...I mean chicken breasts
[b]I LOVE JESSIE![/b]
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| Backstab Me...Everyone Else Has |
| 05.04.04 (8:37 pm) [edit] |
I'm here to vent....
I'm tired of being lied to. I can't have a single friend without them or something else ruining it. I was going to be spied on, why? Because people are ignorant. Anybody who encouraged this can go to hell at the present moment. I'm done. I used to believe I'd always forgive people, but spying? How fucking low can you go? How can you do that to your friend? I've been nothing but decent to these fucking assholes. They'll backstab you quicker than anyone. It's sad when you can't trust anyone anymore. It really hurts me that someone can't even trust me to go to the movies with a friend. A FRIEND. SHE'S NOTHING MORE THAN A FUCKING FRIEND. Get over it. I feel toyed with, and I hate you all for fucking with me. But that will be the last time you ever try. You're out of my life. And let me tell you...you should be fucking thankful Jessie told me before I found the fuck out.
Jessie is the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I'm extremely thankful for her. I trust her with my life, and she's the only person I'll ever trust. I can't trust my own friends I've known my whole entire life. She's everything to me and more, and right now, I don't know what I'd do without her. I was so close to just killing someone tonight, but the thought of her, stopped me from doing anything harmful to myself and everyone else around me. She makes me complete, and she can turn me from angry to happy in a split second. I love her with all my heart. I love you Jessie. You're the most beautiful woman in the whole entire world, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. [u][b]I[/b][/u] love [b][u]you[/u][/b].
[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| How Stupid Am I? |
| 05.02.04 (8:43 pm) [edit] |
I'm pissed at myself for how I treated Jessie tonight. I didn't mean to be so bitchy or treat her that way. I was just angry...and I could apologize a million times and still feel horrible...I love her.
My back is killing me...at work today I had to lift really heavy boxes, and now my back hurts like crazy. It hurts even worse when I walk, lay down, or sit. Only time it doesn't hurt is when I don't move. Ugh...
I had a shitty day, and I hate everyone who told Katie to do that to me, fuck you all. I don't get why you try so hard to make my life a living hell...let me breathe for 5 minutes of the fucking day. Now that you leave Jessie alone, why can't you leave me alone too? All I want is 5 MINUTES OF PEACE AND QUIET, WITH NO TORTURE. I can't even have a good day anymore...I do, then something always fucking ruins it. I want to be happy...and I want Jessie and I to just have peace and be able to have a relationship without THE BULLSHIT. Kyle needs to leave me the FUCK alone. I wish everyone else would too. You're all trying to destroy my friendships, and you always do. All I want is a fucking friend!
I love Jessie so much, and I miss her like crazy. I'm so annoyed, hurt...and angry. I wish I could lay in her arms and hear her tell me that she loves me, and well I wish for the 'I love you' part from her like crazy as it is. I hope she's doing ok because she wasn't in the greatest mood earlier. I want her to be happy, and I feel like I only cause her grief, which sucks. She says I don't, but I think I do. Oh well...I love her. I miss her...and god I miss her voice....
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[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| I'll Make It Right... |
| 04.29.04 (8:33 pm) [edit] |
Of course, something ruined it, so I can't see Jessie. I ruined it partially too. I shouldn't have sat down and given up, I should have kept going. I want to make things right for Jessie. I'm going to move here. I'm going to find a new job, find a place to live, and live here. I'll go to UAA, and I'll do everything right by her. She deserves the very best, and I'll give it to her.
[u][b]Jessie[/b][/u],
It hurts me in every single way that this didn't work, I wish it had. I love you no matter what, and every attempt we've made, must give some sort of sign. Maybe we aren't ready to meet though we think we are. I promise everything's going to be better. I'm going to move here with you, and we can see eachother all we want. I can hold you whenever you need it. I know it seems like everything is impossible, but nothing is impossible. Everything will work out. If we weren't meant to be hunny, we wouldn't have come so far. I'll prove this to you. I'll get some job here, even if it's not for so much pay. I'll adjust, ANYTHING to make you happy. I'll be happy anywhere near you. You're my true family, you're my true friend, and I love you very very much. Believe every word I say hunny, and have faith, because we've made it this far, we'll never lose as long as we have eachother. I love you baby, I always will.
[b][i]~Missy~[/i][/b]
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| Can't Wait... |
| 04.28.04 (10:51 pm) [edit] |
I'm overly excited about seeing my baby soon. Yeah, my flight is at like 6 am, but that's ok. I get to see my baby!! It's going to be perfect. I can't wait to touch her, kiss her, hold her. It'll be amazing, especially since my uncle will be out of town for 2 weeks....oooh the possibilities! She's going to look so beautiful in person, and I'm going to be amazed that everything came together. I'm going to choke on every word and make a total ass out of myself in front of her. I know it...but I love her so much.
I hope she loves me as much as she does now when she meets me. I'm not perfect, I wish I were. I'd like to be perfect for her. I'd like to look good to her. Yeah, we're so different in appearance, but at heart, we have a lot in common. I don't see why appearance is such a big deal to people. Yeah, we'll turn some heads...but that'll be good...this world needs a damn change. I just hope she doesn't change her feelings about me. I'll probably look like 50 times fatter, or 10 times uglier in person.
I love you Jessie, so much. I'm so glad everything came together for us and I get to look you in your eyes tomorrow night. I hope for a nice evening with you, and I hope everything runs smoothly. I'm looking forward to the next month just being with you, and holding you close to me. You mean everything to me, and you always will. I'm having a good feeling about this, and everything feels right. I'm so lucky to have someone like you in my life, your personality, and your beauty...it just makes me wonder why you would spend your time with me. I love you hunny, and I can't wait!!!!!!
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I love you Jessie[/b]
[i]~Missy~[/i]
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| Yawn... |
| 04.28.04 (12:14 pm) [edit] |
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I needed a change, and I was tired of being known as 'whippy', so blow me if you don't like it.
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